Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Vulnerable....

A prayer that I have been trying to have the courage to pray is for me to be open and vulnerable to God's teaching and lessons for me through this journey. I think I started down this path a couple of week's ago when I could sense myself making decision's to "protect my heart." I was trying to convey to a friend recently that one of the most difficult realities for us right now is the feeling of being in a holding pattern. Not knowing if God's healing will look like how we want our miracle to look. And trusting that His will for our life is best even if I don't know what the reason is and that He sometimes gives hard answers to our prayers.
Tonight I came across this Psalm, "Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my thoughts. Point out anything in me that offends you, and lead me along the path of everlasting life." Psalm 139:23-24.
If I am honest, this is really a pretty scary prayer for me to pray. Now I know He knows what I think before I even think it, but to ask Him to truly know my heart, and point out what offends Him-ouch, that is tough. But what would my life look like if I started each day with that prayer? To make me sensitive to His leading in every detail of my life, and opening my eyes that I may see glimpses of the truth He is trying to teach me. Making myself vulnerable to His teaching, even when the lessons are really hard.

1 comment:

tavobrib said...

We continue to pray for you, Amos, Anastacia and baby Isaac sweet sister. I love the story of his name. We love you