Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

Monday, July 11, 2011

How He loves...

Breathe...

We can do this...

At least that is what I try to tell myself. And remember He is our strength to do this. As I have said before, I am not sure how I could otherwise. Especially when some days I struggle just to function as a mom, as a wife and not feel guilty for letting the sadness overwhelm me. I was walking early yesterday morning and I told God that I feel like the father from the story in Mark 9. The story where the father brings his son to Jesus for Him to heal the boy "if he can." The exchange between the father and Jesus in verses 23-24 have gone around and around in my thoughts the last several days.
"What do you mean, "If I can'?" Jesus asked. "Anything is possible if a person believes." The father instantly cried out, "I do believe, but help me overcome my unbelief!"
Some days my faith seems so small, and that "if" seems so big. As I struggle to overcome my unbelief, I remember that He loves Isaac more than we even do. That in our struggles is when we are the very closest to Him. That it is His hand I feel gently hugging me when Anastacia wraps her sweet arms around me. That it is Him I feel carrying me when I don't have the energy for another step.

I have always loved the song that the David Crowder Band sings "How He loves." God reminded me exactly how much He loves me and that He is with me each step as I was singing that song yesterday morning in church......


"And heaven meets earth like an unforeseen kiss
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest
I don't have time to maintain these regrets
When I think about the way
Oh, He loves us, oh"

The irony is that in the midst of all of this, I feel the closest I have ever felt to Him. As if heaven has met earth. That there is the bigger picture of eternity that our journey and Isaac play a part in, and that He love us so very, very much.

2 comments:

Casey said...

we love you guys! -the cariker family

littlemommaclary said...

We will keep in our prayers. -The Clary family