Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

Saturday, July 14, 2012

One Year...

July 13, 2012~approx 2:00pm

A year ago right now we were getting ready to say hello and goodbye to you...
So tiny and precious you were...
Happy one year in heaven sweet Isaac...

It has been amazing to see the impact that your little life has had, the stories we continue to hear.  I think in your short time you have made more of a difference than I will in my entire lifetime. You have shaped and defined my faith in my Father, I cannot tell your story without telling of the hope of our Jesus.  The peace that surpassed all understanding the day we met you.  We are closer to Him than ever before because of you.  I know this because it was His arms that held me that day, it was His strength that has carried us over the last year.

You made me brave sweet boy, it was courage because of you that I stepped out in faith to trust in His plan.  It fills this Momma's heart to see how He continues to give purpose to your little life.  Thank you for blessing our family.  We look forward to the day we will see you again, until then we rest in the Hope and Peace that only He can give knowing you are in His arms in heaven.
We found this image through a friend, it has given me so much peace, imagining that perhaps this is what it looks while you laugh with Jesus in heaven:)


He blessed with a glimpse of His promise this evening while I was walking.  Fortunately I found a picture that someone had captured of the double rainbows over Tulsa.

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Our Little Rainbow

And after the storm, the promise of the rainbow...

Meeting Sofia (wisdom-σοφία) Hope~June 2, 2012

Waiting for "go time"...

Excited big sis...

Love of my life and best Daddy ever...

So blessed with an amazing team, love Dr. H...

Our first time meeting you, and did you ever have a set of lungs. Best.Sound.Ever...

Sweet Alyssa surprised us by coming in just for your delivery...

Big sister's first time to see you with excited Nana, Papa, Grandma, Papa, Tia and Cristian...

Getting to know you...

Dr. H, what a year and half she has walked through with our family, so, so thankful for her...

Our two angels...






What a year we have had, and He has never left our side...

We are reminded constantly of His power, perfection and promise.

And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.  Romans 8:28

Friday, June 1, 2012

Update and thank you...


With Sofia's arrival coming soon, we wanted to thank you for all of the love and support you have blessed our family with over the last year and a half.  Without our faith in God and love of family and friends (near & far) I am not sure where we would be.  If I could ask you to find room in you prayers for our family over the next few days we would greatly appreciate it.  There is lots of excitement, but I would be in complete to denial to say there isn't some anxiety and fear.  Sweet Anastacia asks weekly if Sofia is coming to live with us, or in heaven with her brother.  My thoughts often spiral back to last year at this time, ironically exactly today we were at Children's in St. Louis undergoing testing for Isaac. It is such a bittersweet time for our family.  We are eternally grateful and overjoyed to meet Sofia, at the same time our thoughts often are on our sweet son in heaven.  Many of you have sent messages of love and prayers the last several days and weeks, thank you.  We will keep you updated as Sofia joins our family.  Below is a letter that I wrote earlier this month, and it certainly applies to so many of you....

We knew from the beginning of this journey that God had His hand on it.  And His timing was perfect and never ceases to amaze us. We prayed for someone to walk along with us and He sent us all of you.  Your friendship has helped heal our hearts.
Thank you for sharing and doing life together, not just being together. God in is infinite wisdom wired us for community and knew we needed you, our friends and family more than ever this last year.
You allowed us to bring our joy, sorrow, pain, and lay them at your doorstep.  You have been there to celebrate both the beauty and the sorrow with our family. Many times you were content to come and just “be”.   Thank you for not staying “safe”, but instead reaching out with LOVE to us, for opening up yourself and your families to us.
“For where two or three gather in my name, there am I with them.” Matthew 18:20
Thank you for being the hands and feet of Jesus to our family this last year!   You opened your hearts to love and give as Jesus would.  Through so many of the moments we have shared with you, God has met us with His love and shared that He is enough….
You are loved… Psalm 103:11
You are chosen…1 Peter 2:9
You are valuable…Matthew 10:31
Thank you for the last year and for today, sharing in our joy!  You are a gift from God.  Each one of you has been such a blessing to our family and we love you all~

Amos, Jennette, Anastacia, Isaac & Sofia

“All praise to the God and Father of our Master, Jesus the Messiah! Father of all mercy! God of all healing counsel! He comes alongside us when we go through hard times, and before you know it, he brings us alongside someone else who is going through hard times so that we can be there for that person just as God was there for us. We have plenty of hard times that come from following the Messiah, but no more so than the good times of his healing comfort—we get a full measure of that, too. 2 Corinthians 1:3-5 

Sunday, April 8, 2012

Everything

As my finger ran over her new shark tooth necklace, I immediately thought of thorns, then the crown. It is hard to find words to convey the meaning this Easter has for our family. We love them so much it hurts, physically it hurts. To imagine willingly, intentionally, sacrificing your child for me, for you, for our fallen world...

Because if we had the choice we never would have given up Isaac. But isn't that exactly what He did for us? Gave up His son? It cost Him everything.

It. Is. Everything.

It. Changes. Everything.

How can we ignore the miracle of Jesus' life...the love, grace, mercy, redemption, and hope we receive through Him.

The HOPE. This priceless gift we have, because of today, we know we will one day see Isaac again. Because of today, even though part of me has died, I am still alive.

Isaac is with Him, I may not know or understand His ways, but I can know Him. And we have hope because we have Him.

"It is finished." John 19:30

And we are redeemed...


We went as a family today to Isaac's grave, Anastacia wanted to help decorate it. (And we have finally picked out a marker, I think it took us some time before we were ready to go there) Her three pictures she made for him in the meantime are his marker. The cross, the last supper, and Jesus in the garden telling Mary He is alive. How I love her sweet spirit. As we were leaving, she waved and said goodbye.

Our conversation a couple of weeks ago...
"Mommy I miss Isaac, what do you think he looks like now?"
"I think he probably looks a lot like your Daddy, just like he did when he was born."
"You mean he has golden hair?"
"Yes, I think he has golden hair."
"I wish I could visit him so we could play."
"I know, Mommy misses him so much too."
"But, it doesn't work that way does it Mommy, once you go to heaven you have to stay there."
"No, it doesn't work that way."
"I am glad he is in heaven then, because one day I will get to go see him and play with him forever. When I go see Jesus."
"Yes, we will."

To update you on our precious new addition, Sofia, she is doing wonderful. He gives me peace daily through her kicks and activity. She is growing, and a healthy three pounds. It is hard to believe we are down to counting weeks until she will be part of our family. Thank you so much for all of the prayers and messages. We are grateful and excited for the hope of new life...